Welcome to My International Year Abroad blog

11th of march 2023 back home

Hello sunshine! Hello Black Sea! Hello old / new me ? Definitely a bit of both.

It was definitely scary at first, the thought of leaving the one internship I had dreamed of joining since almost a year ago. It’s funny how things turn out sometimes, especially when you are in the position to compare expectations with reality.

I didn’t regret going back home, I felt relieved even though I was lost and in no position to be either a student nor an intern. I still am a bit lost but taking this time to really reflect on what I want for my future.

Right before buying the plane ticket, I had a very positive and helful talk with one of my tutors. I felt encouraged and supported. I wasn’t too sure if I was doing the right thing before people started to actually confirm that it might be for the better, so I started believing it as well.

It’s been 2 weeks now since I’ve been home, searching for other internships, looking at design agencies, applying and applying. I have been thinking of other ideas as well if I unavoidably remain jobless.

I might just start working from within, meaning I’ll be my own boss if no one else wants to. I’ve always been a fan of the idea of freelancing so why not try it now? I have a plan. Work on my design style, abilities, develop a social media, a voice, an online personality. I am aware my networking lines are quite closed now, I do have setbacks, but I am going to make the most out of technology and virtual connections.

I don’t feel sure of myself 24/7, and still second guess my design skills, but I never stop reminding myself that no one was ready or felt ready right before starting their own big thing. So I’ll just do the same. Do it all unready!

– i have no idea what i’m going to do tomorrow.

– how exciting!

“night at the museum” script